Saturday, July 30, 2011


I've been under 200 for twelve days in a row.  That hasn't happened since 2001.  But this afternoon I weighed and I was 203.2.  Unless I urinate a lot this means tomorrow I will be 200+ or even 201. I feel like I don't even dare eat any dinner tonight.  I am so terribly frustrated and there is not a human being except my CalorieKing friends and one other that I can express it too.  Not even my husband.

I wasn't feeling badly this morning until I received this message on Facebook from my sister.  It was directed to me but in the public setting where all my friends can see it.  Today's challenge: you can't post anything w/the words "calories, food, weight, or exercise". Ready? GO! ;^)

This hurt me beyond words.  Months ago my very good friend told me I talk about my weight too much.  My husband got very upset with me several months ago for telling him my weight in the mornings and 
expressing my disappointments when I gained.

I count calories every day.  I exercise at least 6 days a week.  I've lost 70 pounds and yet I have this horrible fear that some morning I'll get on the scale and I'll weigh 270 again.

I sometimes feel like giving up and that scares me too.

People who are naturally thin and never have to work at it do not realize how fortunate they are.

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